Would you take bufo in my position?
I’m have struggled all my life with ocd, depersonalization, depression, anxiety. I don’t have huge trauma but the atmosphere I grew up in was not good with narcissism and difficult family dynamics.
Last 5-6 years I was in a very hard working position which I’m finally out of. Towards the end of it I became dependent on sleep meds and had to go to rehab to get off of them.
For the few months after I was in a better place and was functional. Not great but not terrible.
Now another month later I am really struggling with depression, ocd, depersonalization again. I feel like my life has been a never ending experience of suffering. I would love to have my brain powerwashed but the only thing is I’m not sure if I have it in me to be really destabilized right now. I might but I’m not sure.
I have done psychedelics in the past. Mushrooms mdma ketamine. Nothing has had a lasting effect. The trip is hard or good and then everything closes up despite all my efforts at integration.
I had a thyroid surgery a few years ago and don’t have a thyroid.
Just wondering what bufo may or may not do for me. I am desperate for change.