Hi guys what's up? I hope you all are doing good in life. The para prakriti who we call as the adi shakti is beyond our understanding. She is complete, self sufficient, omnipresent, Standalone energy and is the ultimate bramhan or parabramhan. This adi shakti has two aspects which are purusha and prakriti and there our ancient rishi have coined terms like shiva and shakti. Shiva or the purusha is her static aspect or non mover but who is all knower and is in absolute knowledge. This purusha is nirvikar or does not participate in anything and is pure consciousness. But she has one more aspect which we call as shakti or her creative will. Thus the shakti aspect of her does everything in the creation. At the beginning of creation the shiva and aspects of her merge in union and therefore the churning starts out of which millions of universes are created just by her will. She then creates param shiva, sada shiva, mahavishnu and trinities who are bramha vishnu and maheswara. Then she imparts her amshas or shaktis to the trinities. She gives laxmi to vishnu, gauri to maheswara and creates the beautiful lokas for them where they can resides and participate in creation. Maheswari or the shakti of maheswara as we call as parvati is an amsha or shakti of her.Laxmi is also shakti of her and similarly saraswati is also her shakti. She who is eternal and the parama prakriti is lalita tripursundari in her complete form. She is also kali or our beloved Dakshina kali. She is also Durga or chandika. All her shaktis like vaishnavi, maheswari, varahi, narshinghi manifested from her and a part of her creative aspect which our ancient rishi coined as shakti. The masculine aspect of her is shiva or purusha and the feminine aspect of her is shakti. It is her shakti aspect which does everything in the universe. Thats why thakur Sri sri Ramkrishna paramhansha said that everything is Kali. Kali is the doer, Kali is the great enchantress, Kali is sole reason of everything. Her shiva aspect or the purusha is niranjana, nirvikar,nirvishesa, nirakar and is not moving. Thats why we see sadashiva as a corpse and a devi which is her creative will sits on the sadashiva. She who is mahamaya has a milion eyes, millions limbs and hands, decorated with divine flowers and jewels, has the lustre of million suns is said to reside in manidweepa. Don't take it literally. She doesn't require any loka to reside in. She is the entire creation , the source of everything. reason of reason , the great enchantress, mahamaya herself who manisfested as mahakali and helped Lord Janardana or Vishnu to kill madhu and kaitabha. She is the one who takes avatars or incarnations to deliver the universe and her devotees. Durga, kali and all the mahavidyas are her manisfestations. Anyone who chants her names should attains and all their desires get fulfilled. She is the fruit of all actions, she is the ever pervading paramatma and the source of everything which is why she is referred the great mother. She is the mistress of the universe. She is all in all. No one knows about her true swaroopa or form. O beautiful one, O lotus eyed one , O ambika, O three eyed one, O great enchantress may you bless us all and make us your eternal servants of your lotus feet. Jay Durga Jay durga, Jay kali Jay kali, Jay tara jay tara. May adi parashakti who dwells in all of us and is the kundalini shakti in us guide us all towards enlighment and finally moksha since this material world is full of miseries and pain. O our beloved Bhavatarini may you deliver us all. Om namoh Adyaye.

so for bg- i was born into a family with a history of shakta and other amalgamations of traditions. we do mainly normal devotion and puja, plus lotssss of japa. so i grew up very used to sadhana, but im not like a hardcore sadhak or anything. (still very young, btw)

So i usually play bhajans in the bg in my room when im doing literally anything, and i let whichever bhajans play. So the Lalita Sahasranamam started playing, and oddly enough, i fell asleep like one minute into it or so then thats when i got a dream (I wasn't educated on maa lalita at all, so i wasn't too aware of what this prayer even was before)

This melting black lady was floating above as i was sat by a river of blood. the blood was deep red and rushing down what i think was the eastern (right) direction because i was facing the mountains. She was like extremely black, to the point she almost looked like she could absorb everything around her. If darker than vanta black was a thing, it'd be her. She had hair that was like floating around, and she herself looked like she was made of ink. She was flowing, like moving slowly but inside herself, not like left to right. it was almost like an inverse twirling motion. hard to describe her honestly because she broke all laws of reality that i knew. She grabbed me by my hair (not angrily, somehow she seemed calm) and dragged me into the river, going with the flow of the blood.

blood got in my nose, lungs, thru my eyes. was a pretty gruesome sight, but in the dream, i was kinda unphased. I just let her, it didnt even really hurt. i was just there existing. then im pretty sure i woke up after. And she was floating above me. It felt like wind of a hurricane was pushing me down into my bed, and the skin would rip off my flesh, and my bones would crumble and combust. again, somehow, this didn't hurt. It was just mildly uncomfortable and lowkey weird. she said something, but her voice wasn't feminine at all. it wasn't masculine either it was just idk normal? it was something along the lines of, i will always sink into my blood because of her because my blood is hers. or something like that. and then i snapped out of it.

day went on as normal, and i saw her a few other times in similarly weird dreams. pls note im very new to all this, and im praying bc i love maa kali, and it's basically my life. I dont think its anything bad because i always get good results (as in i feel complete) when i pray. so idk im js curious.

All help would be appreciated thanks 🙏🏻💖