Odd black melting figure in dream with lalita sahasranamam
so for bg- i was born into a family with a history of shakta and other amalgamations of traditions. we do mainly normal devotion and puja, plus lotssss of japa. so i grew up very used to sadhana, but im not like a hardcore sadhak or anything. (still very young, btw)
So i usually play bhajans in the bg in my room when im doing literally anything, and i let whichever bhajans play. So the Lalita Sahasranamam started playing, and oddly enough, i fell asleep like one minute into it or so then thats when i got a dream (I wasn't educated on maa lalita at all, so i wasn't too aware of what this prayer even was before)
This melting black lady was floating above as i was sat by a river of blood. the blood was deep red and rushing down what i think was the eastern (right) direction because i was facing the mountains. She was like extremely black, to the point she almost looked like she could absorb everything around her. If darker than vanta black was a thing, it'd be her. She had hair that was like floating around, and she herself looked like she was made of ink. She was flowing, like moving slowly but inside herself, not like left to right. it was almost like an inverse twirling motion. hard to describe her honestly because she broke all laws of reality that i knew. She grabbed me by my hair (not angrily, somehow she seemed calm) and dragged me into the river, going with the flow of the blood.
blood got in my nose, lungs, thru my eyes. was a pretty gruesome sight, but in the dream, i was kinda unphased. I just let her, it didnt even really hurt. i was just there existing. then im pretty sure i woke up after. And she was floating above me. It felt like wind of a hurricane was pushing me down into my bed, and the skin would rip off my flesh, and my bones would crumble and combust. again, somehow, this didn't hurt. It was just mildly uncomfortable and lowkey weird. she said something, but her voice wasn't feminine at all. it wasn't masculine either it was just idk normal? it was something along the lines of, i will always sink into my blood because of her because my blood is hers. or something like that. and then i snapped out of it.
day went on as normal, and i saw her a few other times in similarly weird dreams. pls note im very new to all this, and im praying bc i love maa kali, and it's basically my life. I dont think its anything bad because i always get good results (as in i feel complete) when i pray. so idk im js curious.
All help would be appreciated thanks 🙏🏻💖