r/PsychosisRecovery

I wanted to make this post in case anyone is able to relate and KNOW you aren’t crazy. I went through psychosis a few months ago and a post like this would’ve really helped me.

My psychosis was triggered by taking too high of a mg of edibles, this is what it looked like:

- I thought people could hear my thoughts and it would trigger really nasty thoughts in my brain- this was my subconscious way of trying to prove to myself people couldn’t hear me. Obviously that didn’t work though so I would be repeating things I didn’t want to think and having to make sure I wasn’t talking out loud because it truly felt like I was.
- I thought I knew everything about everyone and would tell people things they were insecure about because I claimed to be psychic. I would literally say “you are sad because you’re fat.” Or “you aren’t actually happy you’re pretending to be”… just things I shouldn’t have said
-I thought everyone was fake and almost as if I was in the Truman show because people wouldn’t tell me that we could telepathically communicate
- I was having 3-6 panic attacks everyday because of the things going on in my head and I would lock myself in my room for days just to avoid seeing anyone.

There is a lot more but these are the main things I would do. My psychosis led me down a path of major substance abuse and I didn’t even know I had psychosis until I was diagnosed in rehab. If you are dealing with any of these things you NEED to stop smoking weed. My psychiatrist said that when you start going through psychosis you have a 40% higher chance of developing schizophrenia.

My symptoms aren’t fully gone, it comes in waves, it’s much more manageable now. They think I’ll be fully out of it in about 3 more months.

I hope this helped someone because psychosis can look so different for everyone.

I unfollowed everyone i knew on instagram in my episode. I thought they wanted to harm me and stuff. I also did this on snapchat. Im much better now and grounded. I am going back to school in 3 months and iam worried they will think iam weird because i have basically no followers and a low snapscore. I have one friend i have a snapscore with and also on instagram i have like 2 people. I dont wanna follow my old contacts back bc theyll probably think im weird bc i unfollowed them and suddenly iam back with 0 following. During my episode that lasted 3-4 years i didnt had many friends besides the people i was in school with. They think im crazy bc i was pretty psychotic and manic in school. So my question is should i try to follow old people or delete it? And how will i make new friends without social media presence and low amount of friends and people i know? I have basically no social life…

This is a very good anti paranoia agent.

tried to make a post the other day, didnt save as draft, am making it again.

not gonna go into much detail but I am working full time, a physically demanding job, also doing training, playing music, going out, etc, all the while realising all my possible delusions, like they are still there, but they never go on a tangent, if you catch my drift.

I am pretty young, also on wellbutrin and zoloft, and finally finding myself again after hospitalisation and a bunch of shitty meds (risperdal-,latuda) and shitty community centres "especially made for early intervention "

also have to mention, have taken 0.5mg mushrooms, had a good trip, am smoking weed daily, and no problems, but really its the antipsychotic that I wanna focus on as, when the meds were shitty, I knew it and blamed the meds, I could feel it. With this one its different.

Something about the partial (70% IA) agonism of only the d3 receptor, associated with mood and some more stuff, and all paranoia is gone.

Also helps functionality when 5ht2a and d2 are naturally left alone, and I wont even speak for anti adrenergic and weird stuff like that. although antihistamine (zyprexa) is good for emergency, always carry it never had to use this.

so zyeah there are many ways around this ilness, or I just got lucky, zi duno, but I thought I was a lost cause for sure.

It was one year of death almost.

Even had a close attempt.

Never give up guys.

Life is worth it.