r/Molested

I developed huge breast really young in life and ever since I can remember, my uncle and all my male cousins used me for that. They would make me go topless around the house every day and molest them. And now I am hyper sexual when it comes to my boobs still. My uncle would make me go in the room and he would touch on the and do worse. I was homeschool and banned from bras and even shirts most days. They also have videos of me they made me shake them around while they filmed.

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I have been facing a rough patch lately with no clear end in sight and I am on a slippery slope regarding my hypersexuality and all those urges and kinks that I work so hard to suppress keep surfacing back.

And I keep going back to it because that kinda makes me feel happy, even though it shouldn't.

i think a lot of the reason why i think and act the way i do now is because of my past. i was molested by several men growing up (uncles and a cousin) and i just wanted to make them love me even more after they started. i would try to give them kisses and sit in their laps and try to get them to notice me.

some of it has definitely transferred over to now and im trying to get my craving for attention in a healthier way. even thinking back im still not sure if i really needed their love or if i just loved being noticed and if i really did have “fun” being how i was. or if it was all just grooming and im having stockholm syndrome in a way.

I grew up with a lot of things dealing with my father. He would always insist that I wasn’t bathing properly and that I needed help. He insisted on bathing or showering with me. He would touch me then and it was all confusing. I would orgasm but feel dirty after. Unfortunately I started to seek it out which makes me feel so guilty and evil.

My mother left us young. Eventually he started coming into my room at night. Been working with my therapist through all this. The thing I struggle with most are the times I sought it out. I feel guilty. I often avoid orgasms because memories come back during. If I let myself remember it’s more intense, but then the guilt sets in. Just don’t know how to fix it all. Maybe I’m broken for good.

This has literally been my life. Entire life. Most people can’t relate at all.

I had a pretty “up” phase lately and thought it was subsiding but it only dampened about a week. Then it’s up again and I’m back in a world that created who I am today. Crazy.

The simplest things will trigger me and I’m back in that insatiable part of my life. Work takes a back seat to everything sexual. Everything does. It’s enveloping and covers me like a warm comfortable blanket.

I thought getting older would dampen it but if anything it becomes more frequent.

This has literally been the only constant in my life for all of my life.

I have told people about my abuse and they say they understand. I know they are trying to empathize. I feel like it is so much easier to tell my story to others that have went through something similar. I know my story isnt always deemed outrageous compared to some but at least they can understand the part of why it is why I am the way I am, or understand how it has affected me.

I don’t know if this is too much for this subreddit. If it is then feel free to take it down.

For a long time, I didn’t consider myself a victim of SA. Even today, I sometimes wonder if I “count” as a victim compared to the others that experienced things like me.

I was abused by my brother for about a year when I was 8 and he was 13. To be honest, I enjoyed it at the time. I didn’t want it to stop and I was disappointed when it did. He also introduced me to cnc type porn at the time and I think that it sent me down a path of hyper sexuality and addiction.

Even at that time I would have dark fantasies that involved other people having what was done to me done to them. It excited me. However, at no point did I ever consider actually carrying out my fantasies.

As I got older I continued being aroused by those types of things. These days, I talk to people like me who experienced things in their past and developed kinks because of it. People that might not judge me and might even be aroused by my fantasies.

However, it’s this complicated relationship I have with my kinks and my trauma that always made me feel like I wasn’t actually a “victim.”

Even now, I sometimes feel like a predator or a creep for being in these subreddits because of the things I get off to. However, I didn’t choose to be this way. I didn’t choose to be abused or to have my sexuality turned upside down before I even had a chance to hit puberty. I didn’t choose to be hyper sexual. If I don’t belong here, where do I belong?

I don’t push my kinks on others. I like helping people who experienced trauma, and I’m always respectful about boundaries and limits. Yet, I still can’t shake that feeling like I’m somehow “bad” or “dirty” or just wrong for being the way I am.

I know for a fact I’m not the only one. I see posts of people confessing that they have similar kinks and that they also struggle with guilt. Still, even if I know their abuse is valid, I find myself doubting the validity of mine. Am I actually a victim? Am I bad person for the things I watch and get off to?

I’d like to get the opinion of others with trauma on how they feel about my background. Both from people who developed kinks and the people that didn’t. Am I a bad person?

What's the youngest anyone remember something happening?

In the middle of getting trafficked by my dad, becoming hypersexual, and as my body started to develop, I noticed how the boys around my private school were looking at me the same way the men I was being trafficked to did.

Because of my hypersexuality and messing with some of the boys around school, word got around fast, and I was eventually caught by one of the school administrators.

This admin was known for picking on certain girls, so him getting me alone and groping my body as he threatened to tell my dad about the things I was caught doing during school hours, honestly, didn't surprise me much, but I didn't like the idea of my dad finding out.

He ended up having his way with me in his office, and it continued throughout my life in that private school.

Just posting tonight ig. I wrote about some stuff I did this weekend which I know wasn't good but it was good for ME I think, in a way?

After posting, I started thinking about all the stuff that happnd to me when I was young. I told the story here before of my first time being basically molested when I was 11.

And it happend a LOT after that! But right now I was thinking about some of the boys at my school when I was probably 14? I went to a school that was 8th up to 12th grade. So like classes were separate but all the same campus.

And I swear I am not tryna make a thing of it but I think I said in another post that girls who develop early get a LOT more unwanted attention than the other girls do.

So by 14, I was a full C. And obvs boys at school notice but I started relizing that a lot of my men teachers would look at me a lot and the other girls who were more developed. I had a history teacher that year who had me stay after class a lot because it was my last one and I would help him clean up. And I thought it was a special privalege to get to help the teacher! I mean, it was! But I guess he wanted it more special?

One time I was doing my regular thing, picking up trash in the room and bringing him books and stuff that kids left and he asked me to wipe down all the desks. So I did and was just all LALALA cleaning and singing and didn't know he was sitting at his desk and watching my butt the whole time and "helping himself." I don't know how I found out. I think he made some noise and I turned around and could see his arm going. And I already knew guys did that so knew what he was doing. But I never thout of a teacher doing that and it kind of weirded me out. And without thinking first I asked him what he was doing.

And he was embarased I'm pretty sure? But he told me to come over and see. I remember thinking I KNEW what I was going to see but he was a teacher and I can't disobey a teacher.
So I walk up and it was the biggest one I saw by then. Like I saw maybe a few others before that but it was like teen guys.

This is getting long so I'll just say he made me touch him and finish what he was doing. And made me undo my top to look at my boobs and feel them.

And I rember a few years later in 11th grade, he got in a lot of trouble for doing stuff with a 9th grader and had to leave. But it just made me think of how many girls other than me did he do stuff with and they didn't say anything like me.

Have you got good results from it? What's important lessons would you like to give for people.

Hi, me again!

It is just. I found this sub and now I feel like I found a place to actually open up, more than I can in therapy.

This may be a sensitive topic. But don't you all feel like people expect us to behave a certain way and they are actually sympathetic to us if we just show the "depression side" of things.

But if we show or tell the hypersexual side that comess from our experiences, most of the sympathy goes away.

And for me that is the hardest part to handle and I may be alone in that, but the hypersexuallity is awful to handle. I have all those impulses, kinks, experiences and thoughts and there are days that all I can do is put a break on them.

Seriously, if people IRL knew all the shit I got myself into for the last 25 years, I would be... Fucked (not in a good way).

But the annoying thing is, that is as much a consequence as all the other things that were caused by the abuse I have been subjected too.

AND I HATE that they make me feel awful for things that I have an awfully hard time to control.

So I wanted to ask if I got molested or if it’s just SA. So when I was 11, I went to this girls house and we’re friends since I was 9. We were alone btw (she invited me so we could talk without her parents there). So she kinda confessed? Idk and later when I was leaving and near the door we had like a moment ig she kissed me but it was only for a moment and then I think she saw my face and started profusely apologizing. Anyways, so I talked to a couple of friends and they said she didn’t molest just SA’ed me. What do you guys think?

Hi don’t really know what to put here.

My mom and dad split when I was very young and I stayed at my dad every weekend which is pretty normal in the uk

What should have been a good relationship soon turned bad. We were more like a married couple. Every first was with him. He wanted me to be a really forward girl. Showing me off on cam etc.

As I got older it stopped but I carried on acting like that all the time. Snap webcam videos etc. I did it a lot up till recently. I still like the idea I know I only do it because I have been reprogrammed like that

But it has completely shaped me as a person and changed the trajectory or my life for sure. I am a sex crazed little whore loves being used especially while passed out. I never used to like it until I was raped in 2024 but after my uncle used me and played with me and did all he did I ended up craving it so bad I watched taboo porn ever since and fantasise about being used and taken advantage of.. the I was raped in my sleep at a party and I realised even tho that was scary I think I like it??? it’s so hard.. I wish more people unstopd how hard it is to be normal after these experiences.. no one gets it..

I had my experiences with several people around me. Some were closer than others. Since then I’ve been very hypersexual, so much so that it seems like my entire life has revolved around the sexual aspects.

I gravitate to people who had similar experiences as there are things not everyone can understand. People tend to be judgemental about things. “Normal” people would never be able to get any of this.

I (23f) remember things started when I was around 9. My mom began teaching me about "girl stuff" and used those times as opportunities to molest me. She gave me my first orgasms, which obviously felt good but I would always feel kind of dirty afterwards. She did the same things with my sister.

Not long after that started, my dad began doing things with my sister and me as well. They would both do stuff to my sister and me together. My dad eventually took our virginities and then continued abusing us regularly.

Everything went on for a long time and neither I nor my sister ever told anyone. It messed with us a lot and I'm still dealing with the after effects of it.

I've made many posts about this and it's kind of helped. I appreciate how many people have let me reach out to them and given me advice. It's been abunoy road with a lot of weirdos and creeps but I guess it's been mostly ok

I still get weird messages that make me feel bad and that's why I made this post

I still have to share my story but I'm only comfortable talking to other women if they can understand rather than venting to a creep. Thanks for the help so far

Like many of us here, had a family member abuse me when I was young. Which has led to a bit of a porn addiction and hypersexual tendencies. I've (44m) tried to share some of this with my partner (42f), but she just never understands it. So I come here(reddit) to explore, and connect with people. I've had numerous affairs over the years in an effort to calm those inner voices, but has anyone had any luck either finding a partner that matches you or do we just suffer in silence and cheat....

I was molested by my uncle. I’m not sharing details. I’m 26 now but I also have 5 kids. I know that I’m hypersexual but I feel I need to stop. I wish I knew how to be normal!