I am very scared to get a mediumship reading
I’m 21 and I’m incredibly insecure about everything about myself. I’ve had tarot readings before, but they haven’t resonated with me at all. I’ve been told so many things that I don’t know what to believe. Even my own tarot cards haven’t been truthful to me. I feel like no spirit guides have ever reached out to me or communicated with me before, even after begging and pleading, and I think I’m the problem. I genuinely don’t know how to describe it. I’m scared to get an accurate mediumship reading because I’ve never had one before, and I’m scared. I’ve also had my grandparents who are all deceased appear in my dreams but sometimes they don’t act like themselves and they give me false information. For example one time I was crying to my grandma who’s deceased and asked her for a sign. She told me in my dream that same night that I’d spend the rest of my life with my ex, who I’ve been long gone separated for in over 3 years. I’m very troubled and confused and I need to know what’s going on. Do you understand what I’m saying? I’ve had people tell me im “cursed” and I’ve only had one real genuine reading. It was 3 years ago and it was over the phone. The psychic said I’d have an extremely stable and happy relationship with a pieces, which I’ve been in a relationship with them for over 3 years and we are still going strong. But that’s literally the only thing accurate ever I’ve been told. I don’t know what to do.
Also im sorry if you’re seeing this post a lot. My Reddit went down and it spammed all these posts. I deleted them all and am posting this again one last time.