Feels like I am close to my breaking point.
I came into bhkti about 3 years ago. life has filled with obstacles since then, I have lost many friends. I know this is what happens in the path of bhakti.
but now I stand in a moment in life where I am almost graduated with no job in hand, that too is my fault for not studying well enough. But... I don't know I want him to help me, if not him where will I go crying after reaping the fruits of what I have sown, where will a child ho after he hurts himself while playing if not to his mother. I try every single day applying for jobs like a mad man. I recently gave an exam and it was really good but turns out I don't fit the criteria. It feels like my dreams are being crushed. Oh lord I don't know what to do. all I want is to be rich enough to serve my family, feed the poor and the animals. why does it feel like he does not want me to do that even! what does he want. please dear devotees guide me