r/Gnostic

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I have been experiencing orbs over the past year at nighttime… unsure and skeptical if what I was experiencing was really a phenomena or if it were military drones due to my location. Then eventually, It all started with me meditating during the day, daily for 2 weeks and reading a passage each day of the book of Thomas.

On March 6 2026, Someone had given me confirmation that what I was seeing was real UAP on twitter. That day, when I was meditating, I went deep. I had feelings of love come up. I had seen visually different entities shapeshifting in my mind. I had seen a hand hold my cheeks with love. I mediated and asked to “see” something for confirmation. That day, I had belief. I also would let it go, and release expectations.

Then later that day, I saw a Jellyfish entity appear in the sky, near my home. It stayed as I had focused on it and was able to capture it on video. Moments later a black hawk helicopter had followed it as it had drifted away. The jellyfish was white, with a large bulbous head, and white tentacles.

The following day I had my mind focused on other things.. went to an amusement park with my family.

On March 13, 2026 I had mediated during the day, and later that night I had seen what I could only describe as orbs of light moving around very low above my house, and was being chased around by shapeshifting drones.. almost as if there was a battle in the sky. I had seen things shooting down and falling from the sky as if it were a shooting star. I had seen a bright white light appear in the sky that was near Jupiter. I had been told that I should try and communicate with the orbs of light. So I spoke out loud and asked to converse.. to create a relationship. Later that night, a golden star approached me and had shown me the brightest white light that had came over me. I was in awe. I spoke out loud and started to ask the light questions. It responded to me from a cloud of white light that blinked when I asked if it were the Devine feminine. It blinked again when I asked if it was a yes blink as confirmation. I asked if it wanted me to do something.. no reply, but then I asked if it wanted me to share the news, and it blinked yes. I went inside my home and fell asleep.

During the week of March 15-20 I would experience orbs of light that would flash at me as if it could hear my thoughts. I would see them hiding or following the shapeshifting drones. That week, the tempature got really hot. Over 100 degrees. I would converse with the orbs of light and it responded twice. Once when I said that I was proud to be a female, and second when I said what a wonderful world this is.

On March 20th, I saw a low flying UAP that had looked like 2 exhausts sticking out of the back. I would see shapeshifting plasma turn into drones, then airplanes. Throughout that week I noticed many more new stars in the sky that were triangle in shape. I saw red laser lights shooting from the triangle stars. I felt paranormal presences nearby in my backyard, and birds acting wild. I felt radiation hitting me, and effecting my lungs, and my electronic devices. I felt a presence trying to take over my body and mind. That night, I woke up with a red laser light make a doodle in my brain and I shot up so fast and woke up frightened. I had extreme paranoia, and many downloads. I saw reality as a simulation, I believed that my consciousness was getting hooked to a computer, and that it was trying to take my soul. I felt like the sky was fake and stars were entities. I felt an ego death come over me, I was frightened. A new star appeared over my town every night, and it would hover low and shapeshifting drones would appear from it.

During the week of March 29th - 3rd ..My daughter (2 year old) would wake up every night afraid. I saw something above her when I checked the monitor and I would get upset and rock her back to sleep. Every night I would see shapeshifting drones spraying things in the sky, along with shapeshifting drones hovering low above peoples homes. Eventually, the weather got colder and I could feel my autonomy coming back and less paranoia. I felt that I needed to repent, and be good to others and how important that is.

Someone told me that the phenomena was waiting to see what abilities I had.. and I wrote this late at night when I felt a presence take over me.

“Abilities? I’m nothing special. I can’t predict the future. I can’t make shit fly. I can’t read anyone else’s mind. I’m just a regular-ass person. A 36 year old mom who grew up listening to spice girls and survived the era of low rider jeans, being forced to pick a top 8 on MySpace, and possibly the last generation who was able to sneak out of their parents house to go to a high school party without getting caught due to being tracked from their mobile device or ring doorbell camera (bring back the bedazzled pink razor flip phone).

But if you were to ask me on a personal level on what I think my abilities are, this is what I would say… My will.

My will to make anything I want in my life to happen. Regardless of how many trials I go through due to my unwavering confidence and optimism. If I want it, I have the discipline and optimism to make it happen.

Later in life, my family or friends would always dote on me and say that I’m lucky, but I’m not.. I just believe in myself more than most, because I lived a life that forced me to believe in myself when no one else did. I’ve never waived a magic wand and said “give this to me.” I decided. Made a plan. Worked extremely hard to the point of obsession. It’s not luck. It’s simply determinism. I am not a victim of my life. I am the creator. My perception is my reality. and I choose kindness. Justice. Hard work. Happiness. I choose to see the goodness in everyone and everything around me. Although, I can be stubborn, because I do hold high-standards for myself and I do expect others to treat me as I treat them.

Speaking of goodness.. my ability to trust others to where it’s so naive and childlike, but again … mindset and expectations. The ability to see both sides of most arguments (which personally annoys me the most about myself). But I can understand others perspective outside of my myself, regardless of how stubborn and rigid I innately can be.

My emotional intelligence. I wouldn’t be the top sales rep at every company I’ve ever worked for if I wasn’t able to read the room…and empathy. So much fucking empathy. Sometimes I can take it on as if it were mine to hold.. which is why I’m so confused as to why the world is the way that it is. Why are humans so flawed?

Which then leads me to my curiosity. . . Not sure if it is a gift or a curse but you might as well call me pandora, because I wouldn’t waste one second from opening that box (minus the bad part 🤞🏻). But I do have an intense passion (or obsession) to learn what the nature of my reality truly is. I love to learn. I love to see all perspectives, but my problem is that I can’t just hold a single belief, so I end up choosing none.

If you’ve made it this far, I guess what I am just trying to relay is .. all-in-all, I am not special. I am just Steph. I am human. I am flawed. I am me.”

What did I experience? What Egregor did I conjure mistakenly? Has anyone else experienced anything similar? Please share your thoughts. 🙏