I'm just curious if anyone else is on the spectrum, I really feel like an alien sometime and low-key it makes sense because it lead me to understand we aren't from this planet. only the flesh is nothing else..... I've also seemed to have found other people with similar beliefs have been autistic
seriously. now I am somebody who lives a miserable existence of course. Not confident, always tired, depressed and overlooked. no job no car no status no motivation the whole 9 yards. I see all of my successful family members struggling. my rich sister is cheating on her husband. she always complains about how busy she is and how she's stressed .
my mother is locked away in a psyche ward and will never get out till death. my father cheated on my mother and dated an alcoholic abuser.
I've been diagnosed bipolar and seriously struggle just to get outta bed. I've been ready to leave this material realm ever since i can remember. then I looked into religion and slowly read the Bible and learned of other religions and I am fully convinced in gnosticism now. I truly do believe that we are the divine spark, I am a child of God. I've always been a sweet soft hearted individual. I've always looked out for others and lended a helping hand and money whenever I could. I don't judge others so harshly. been very accepting of others.
I've been addicted to drugs and homeless. and now I'm to the point of where yes I have my own apartment, but it's completely paid for by the government and I'm still unmotivated to progress in this fruitless life. I am 100% this life was a mistake, made by a false god and now I'm ready to leave knowing I'm the divine spark. I am contemplating and really seriously do not see the point in this material existence any longer ? why stay in this limited state of consciousness any longer? what else is there to see? I believe life is a mistake and a form of torturous suffering.
what are we all doing still serving this fake world?