Is Engineering even an option for me?
I’m sure there are a million other posts on other forums about this, but I’d rather go straight to the depression source and get some realistic answers.
Forewarning, this is going to be a very personal post asking for personal advice. To preface, I’ve always been a problem child in school, I grew up super lazy and never did my work, but I was just smart enough to not have to try to pass and get put in “advanced” classes. That being said, I’m not stupid, just an ADHD riddled undisciplined child. Eventually I ended up dropping out my 11th grade year to pay bills.
I wound up getting my GED and going community college for Comp. Sci. till I realized I was wasting my time in a subject I hated, which led me to drop out of that too.
Now all of this being said, as I have got older I really really want to go back to school and ever since a kid I have LOVED cars, math, design, chemistry, and physics. This combination of interests has pushed me to do a pretty hefty amount of individual study and for the first time in my life I have been able to read textbooks and enjoy taking notes and learning about the inner machinations of something I love.
HOWEVER… reality is harsh, and my blockade at the moment is that I have no idea if going to college at this point in my life is feasible. I have no support system, no family to live with, nobody to help me if I fall on hard times, and I will somehow have to figure out a way to pay for college while also working full time to be able to survive. As it is I barely get by, and live paycheck to paycheck in a world where its very hard to get a decent job. Another thing I’m terrified of is if I go through all of the circles of hell to get into and through college, then I fail.
Is this an attainable dream? Is it too late for me to spend 4 years full time in college with no scholarships or a family to financially support me? This is more of a scream into the void but any support would be great, thanks to anyone for reading.