How to deal with being in a minority on an important issue
Hi all!
As I said other times here, I'm a theist agnostic about Christianity, with a sympathy for Christian universalism. I'm considering to become a Christian again but eschatology alongside other things in which I seem to have a view that goes against the 'orthodoxy' keep me outside of Christianity.
Regarding eschatology, I do accept that there was a significant prevalence of universalists in the first centuries, although I doubt that they were really the 'majority' as sometimes it is claimed. Also, I do accept that even later in the 'Church of the East' universalism was somewhat popular even in the Middle Ages (indeed, in the past I wrote some posts about this) but it was the classic 'exception that proves the rule', so to speak. So, I'm not saying that Christian universalism is a novel idea that modern people 'conjured up' from writings of some obscure heretical sects that were unfortunately rediscovered recently.
The problem is simply this: all evidence suggests that in most Christian traditions it seems that a 'consensus' of sorts was reached according to which the belief that all human beings shall be saved was simply off-limits. So, the bulk of the Christian traditions simply abandoned the idea and more often than not actively opposed it. The problem with saying that 'traditions' can be wrong for Christians is that, after all, even the Bible itself was the product of 'tradition' (in a broad sense): the very decision of, for instance, including some texts and not others in the Old and New Testaments was after all a decision that was made in the context of the 'tradition' (again, in a broad sense). Hence if, starting from at least from the sixth century universalism was seen as decisively wrong, it seems that 'tradition' in a broad sense was mostly wrong about a very important doctrine: the fate of human beings that are not saved and indeed that some or even many human beings will not be saved. It does not help that apparently most canonized saints (in both West and East) were supporters of ECT.
All of this despite the fact that, to be honest, I believe that the ethical teachings of Christianity actually favour the formation of a desire for the salvation of all human beings. I mean, if Christians are called to love oneself and others (including enemies), it seems that this love would motivate a desire for the salvation of both oneself and others (again, enemies included). Despite this, even a reticence to believe that some will be lost forever was seen with suspicion (and, to be honest, we see all of this even nowadays: many even look with suspicion hopeful universalism!). Rather, it seems that for most of Christian history Christians were taught and forced themselves to accept the idea that for some or even many human beings - including oneself and one's loved ones - the 'final condition' could be one in which for them it would be better to have never been born*.
This certainly wasn't an easy idea to accept and it seems that for most Christians this was an idea that one must accept.
So, all of this to ask: how can one trust, have enough faith in a religion if one also believes that in its history most of its adherents were simply wrong on such an important issue? Becoming part of a religion in some serious ways also implies to accept, for instance, to orient one's entire life in order to make such a religion the most important aspect of one's life (and indeed the first of the Two Great Commandments that are attributed to Jesus seems to say precisely this). It is not an easy thing to do in itself, let alone when you also have to either accept to believe that for some/many people the final state will be one without hope or that the bulk of the Christian tradition (in a broad sense) has been wrong. Given this, I can't help but think that past and present Christian universalists might have been or be missing something that most Christians do not.
*In Mark 14:21 and Matthew 26:24 Jesus is quoted as saying precisely this about Judas Iscariot. I know that universalists have come up with different ways to interpret these verses than a literal "for Judas it was better to have never come into existence" but I believe that the most common interpretation of those words in Christian history was precisely this.
P.S. Thanks in advance for those who will respond. Also, sorry if I will reply late or even not reply. This is also because I want to ponder seriously and calmly about this and I am currently busy with other matters.