Being single and not looking feels so good
I got out of a serious year and a half long relationship just two months ago. A relationship I moved across the world for and left my job family and friends in the US behind. It sucks that my ex was already on dating apps two weeks later. Here I am now slowly rebuilding my life in the US. Im not going to lie, I have been a serial relationship person all through out my 20s. I spent 20-26 in a serious live in relationship and have jumped from relationship to relationship ever since with usually only a couple months apart. Part of the reason for this is that I have always wanted to be a mother and I felt so much societal pressure to get married and start a family. I also never truly learned how to be happy on my own which I really wish I would have by now. Now that im 30 for some reason im chilling out about it. All I can think is thank god I havent married or had a child with the wrong person. It feels SO good to not be worried about finding someone new and just embracing this stage of my life. I will date again, but not for a while. I want to feel really truly happy with myself first where someone would be an addition to the life that ive built. I actually feel so liberated for the first time in a long time. I still want kids, but I am reminding myself I still have time and I love not having them at this moment.