u/yaboii_cc

For context, I am transfem and left the military, moved back in with my family and started taking E almost a year ago. I came out to my parents a few months after moving home, but as far as I know my brother still doesn't know and he's very sensitive so it's hard to know what will happen if I tell him. He's not the most talkative person so I have no idea if he's noticed my physical changes or not, but I feel like I have to hide it around him, like avoiding talking about it when on the phone with friends or wearing tank tops because you can clearly see that I have boobs or am wearing a bra. I've just been sooo fucking tired of having to pretty much act like everything's the same and like I'm ok with constantly getting misgendered and treated like a man by my family. I love my family, but feeling like I can't be myself around them has driven a massive wedge between us to the point where I dread doing anything with them because I just feel like shit the whole time. I'm really bad with confrontation and my parents barely even acknowledge the fact that I'm trans so I don't really know how to bring up how I feel, but it probably won't even matter because I know they won't take me seriously and they'll just see me as a man and misgender me forever anyways. It just really sucks and I wish I could move out but I can't afford to right now.