I (24F) have recently started a relationship with a man (27M) who is addicted to alcohol and ketamine. I met him online while he was already in inpatient treatment, and at first I had no idea how serious his problems were. I fell in love with him from the very first moment we met.
He was in a dual diagnosis program (addiction + bipolar disorder). He stayed in treatment for 5 months and expressed strong motivation to live a completely clean life. About 2 weeks ago, he relapsed when he was allowed to go out briefly.
Today, he chose to leave treatment on his own, and only 2 hours later he used ketamine again.
I feel scares the whole time, I can't eat, I keep waiting for a message. I've been like this since he relapsed 2 weeks ago.
I love him very much, but I feel very confused and scared. Does anyone have advice or experience with something similar? Is it unwise for me to stay in this relationship? I really want a future with him.