7 oh
Hello guys I really just need to vent and need help. I have been taking 7 oh for about 9 months at first it was chill and I would only dose on weekends. But obviously my body got attached quick and my dosage ramped up to about 100-200 mg a day. Just last week i was done. This was ruining myself and the people around me. First I tried to cold turkey, but I just could now handle it. And I also want to mention I use to be a heavy pill addict and other hard drugs (xans, oxy, h) pretty much everything and I was able to get off those…but 7 is different for me I have never felt this bad of a anxiety wd to the point where I feel like I am going to go crazy. But anyways I have been tapering down for the past week and I now have a 5 day weekend before I have to go back to work and I need to lock in but it’s so hard for me when I lock myself in my room. I still have about 100 mg left just in case I can’t handle this. And I’m sorry for my poor writing and rambling on here. But what really is killing me is my girlfriend and I got into a huge fight when I was in mid withdrawal and I finally lost it I told her to leave me alone and she wouldn’t so I snapped and I said “if you don’t leave me alone I’m going to get my gun and blow my head off” and that ruined everything she called my parents and the cops and left the house. And btw I now understand that she is in the right, I should have never said that but I really did not mean it but you clearly just can’t say things like that. So now I am kicked out of my own house to give her space. We have barley talked much and this is the hardest part because she is the only one I feel like that should be here for my I miss her so much and she said she’s not gonna leave me but I’m not sure if she is just saying that because she doesn’t want me to unalive myself or if she really means that she will stick by my side. I’m trying to do everything I can to get better with therapy and my church but I really just don’t want to loose her. If someone could give me your thoughts on this that would be very helpful. And again I am sorry for the long ramble..thank you.