Some days feel more meaningless than others, why??
Everyday is meaningless, but some days feel more meaningless than others...
It just baffles me how I can be like this depending on my mood:
"Life is meaningless but at least I'm distracting myself with worldly pleasures and feeling happy, yay!"
"Life is meaningless and I'm distracting myself with worldly pleasures and feeling numb and constantly think I'm wasting my life, damn!"
For context I graduated high school 6 months ago and currently in a gap year waiting for university.
I don't know whether it's because I have to much time to think or the nagging thought that I need to be a better man before university(I don't like myself), but genuinely this is how I feel everyday. Some days really do just feel more meaningless than others.
Like today. Physically I'm healthy enough to not feel sick. Financially as an individual I would like to have more money to buy good things but at least my family is stable.
But honestly it's just a constant cycle. I don't think this cycle will ever change for the rest of my life...
Anyone else felt stuck in this loop? Any solutions or do you just accept it now?
EDIT: Forgot to mention that some days feel so meaningless that they genuinely feel like they never happened when I try to remember them the next day...