I think I’ve hit my lowest… and I can’t fucking do this alone anymore
I’m drained
Like… completely drained to the point where I feel like my mind is about to literally explode
My heart is heavy and I have no where to go
Not because I have nobody
Bas 3ashan fe3lan mahadesh fahemny and I hate it :)
I’m 24 I like art, music
anything handmade I genuinely admire the effort people put into creating things, no matter how simple or complex. There’s something beautiful about that to me.
Music is my escape ( please be as passionate about it as me )
It doesn’t just help… it heals me :)
Right now I’m literally sitting on the gym floor, crying, headphones in, because I couldn’t even finish a workout. I didn’t eat anything this morning after spending it arguing and crying
And I’ll be honest for once
I can’t handle this on my own anymore.
I’ve always hated the idea of needing someone. I saw it as weakness
But right now? I just… can’t do this alone
I’m not looking for anything intense or demanding
What I want is something that feels like a genuine connection more like a close friendship than a typical relationship.
The kind where you can be your unfiltered self. The goofy, impulsive thoughts. The deep conversations. The comfortable silence.
Because the truth is, I don’t even know if I’m capable of loving the way I used to. I’m exhausted, a bit guarded, and honestly… kind of afraid of people right now so I'll be very cautious if u don't mind it
Still, here’s me:
I care deeply
I feel things intensely (which is both a gift and a curse)
I make art
I love meaningful and even controversial conversations
I’m thoughtful
I’ll respect your space
I’ll share music with you all the time
I’ll sit with you in silence when that’s all you need :)
I'm also very good looking and I take very good care of myself
I don't care about looks so much but height is kind of a big deal for me
I don’t know how to talk about myself beyond that. I just think I’m someone you understand slowly… if you’re patient enough
I’m writing this at my absolute lowest, so please don’t expect cheerful energy right away. I’m not there. Not even close.
I’m Muslim, not very religious.
I’m not okay with anything rushed, especially anything physical or uncomfortable please respect that .
And just to be clear: I might want kids someday. Not 100% certain, but it matters to me, so if you’re completely against that, we’re probably not aligned.
If this doesn’t resonate with you, that’s completely fine but please do not waste my time :)
But if it does… maybe you get it and you'll literally be the best thing that has ever happened to me
Preferable age range : 25-35