Need opinions
So i met this girl during one of my course’s programs for one month. Initially i was reluctant to make any friends but she initiated conversations and we ended up being very good friends. I know you can guess it from here that i started catching feelings. She is smart, kind, full of life. I was bound to fall. Also, she used to be clingy..arms interlocked with mine whenever we walk, discovering my palm when we sat together, all of those things. On one of the days of this program, she said that she loves me. I knew this iloveyou was as a friend. I smiled to it and she looked at me expecting a reply. I told her..if i say i love you, it won’t be as a friend but a lover. All in all, here’s when i told her i liked her. She said nothing to it. When asked if she wanted the same..she said yes for a second and changed it to no. I eventually apologised to her for bringing it to the beautiful bond we used to share. But things are not the way they were. Today, i met her after a month or so for an exam. I had decided to keep it normal and not talk to her much. But we ended up in an eatery together after exam. I asked her if i was allowed to ask if she’s seeing someone..she asked me to not talk about all of this. I also wrote a poem for her, which she didn’t acknowledge. She just wants to be friends with me. But i am filled inside with all the love for her. The fact that she doesn’t even want to talk about it annoys me a little. Idk when we’ll meet again or if i ever wanna talk to her but i love her.
This anonymous platform is all i have to put things off my chest. Any opinions on this matter..pls shoot…you’d end up helping a fellow human :)