u/valeniv

hi love,

i thought i’d been doing well handling this separation.

not until saturday.

i don’t know if it was a coincidence or not, because i knew there was a possibility you might be there that day.

it’s funny how i automatically looked for you in the crowd, and when i couldn’t find you, i completely gave up on the idea that you’d come. but then you actually did, when i least expected it. and you hugged me—twice.

today i’m missing you a little extra, and to be honest, i really needed your hug.

but then, am i missing you, or just the feeling of having you?

hi love.

i thought i was okay. i thought i accepted why we ended already. i thought i was ready letting you go.

but yesterday night, i realized hindi pala. hindi pa pala.

kung ano ano ng pumapasok sa isip ko. kung ano ano ng naimagine ko para mapadali yung pagmove on ko. im painting you as a villain so that i can hate you. but i simply can’t.

meron pa rin konting hope na hindi ka ganun at hindi mo na magagawa ulit yun. umaasa ako na you’re keeping your words that you’re working on yourself to be a better person and partner to me someday.

people around me keep telling me to meet new people, to explore new experiences, to stop orbiting around you. but how? how can i do that when all i want is for us to get back and fix together what needs to be fixed?

hindi ko na rin alam. one day gusto ko magmove on then the next day gusto konv bumalik sayo. i know i didn’t deserve to be treated that way, but i love you too much to give it another chance and make things right.

hays. i want this pain to end.