u/urharamdick

So I have a boyfriend from abroad and this relationship has been going since 2020. We are mainly on snapchat.

We've been sending each other private as an adults now.

Two days ago, as a surprise, I sent him something unexpectedly because we talked about it before and he said it would be nice if I sent something without announcing it.

After sending this were talking about another topic, and I asked if he liked these photos and he said he loved them.

And he just told me to send him something (he said something specific) because he would like to masturbate to it (he didn't mean for it to happen now, he just told me so) to which I asked if he would send me something too, and I asked sweetly and playfully.

He replied to me something like "You have a new habit of recording snaps and keeping them". I asked sweetly ”I don’t get it”, „What do you mean?” and he explained it by saying „You just save them on your second mobile”

I was simply speechless then. It hit me because I felt like I was a total b to him. I felt as if our closeness meant nothing, as if he didn't trust me, I felt accused.

We have never had any situation related to this. I don't even know how he could say anything about it.

I felt it in such a terrible way, because he has a special meaning in my life.

I sent him a two messages "How can you accuse me of this?" „What did you base it on?”

And he just hasn't sent me a reply or read it since then.

We have an hourglass of your snap streak, because since then neither he nor I have sent each other a snap.

I just feel bad. His snapscore increased about 200.

I feel like I'm worthless. I don't even know if I should add something to what I wrote, delete it, or even be active on Snapchat anymore. I don't even know what to say to him until he finally responds. I feel so bad.

But the truth is, I did save things on my other mobile, and it's not a new habit. I've been doing it for a long time. I just never did anything with it, and I don't even know how or when he could have guessed. Maybe it's my personality. I always wanted to keep my memories, and I talked to him about it a lot.

I saved it for myself so it wouldn't disappear like snaps disappears, because I once lost access to my other acc and i lost precious memories with someone else and with him.

So now I saved it to keep it safe. I can't even explain it to him because it feels so wrong when he finds out I didn't even ask his permission.