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My heart and soul
I want to be with you. To reunite and put two pieces that have been apart, back together. I know I could be happy with you. You see me, a little too well, I’d try not to be scared of that. We need each other and we were made for each other. I desire you, and no one else. A daily life together with all the things, meeting of the minds and so much care and love for each other. I’m sorry I denied us time and time again, it was never because I didn’t love you or feel you. Because I do. I appreciate you and I’m grateful to you. You make me laugh, smile, feel proud, feel adored and so seen. I know my people would love you as much as I do. We need you.
Head
It’s better to stay where I am, not cause any more pain and tears. Being here means stabilizing an unbalanced situation that I caused. I wish to not cause any more pain for those I’m responsible for. I wish not to cause any more psychological scars. Or financial strain. It’s tough enough as it is. I’ve had my own battles and being here is a balm, at least some of the time. Theres also logistics of my belongings, which is currently about to be sorted again and can’t be moved yet again unless I want to lose my mind. Then there are what ifs, the worst is if it doesn’t work out, then where do I go? There is no answer for that and that’s a problem. Also I’m a mess, possibly the worst time to be with such a catch as you. It’s embarrassing af
What do I do?