u/unfunny_feline

I have no more hope, nor do I have much capacity for joy. I waste all my energy surviving school just to end up home and not do anything I had the motivition to do earlier in the day.

I have no clue how to continue on forward, if the past months may not even have happened for all I know and yet I'm expected to have learned from them, changed. Nor do I want to continue on. No joys of mine are worth the pain that I live with.

And so I live, only for others. Others I barely see, unless I'm at school.