u/ultimatekiwistrawb

F23 and have no direction

I graduated from college nearly 2 years ago and since then i’ve been unable to get into any university’s to further my career as a actor. i have done so many and it’s hard not to feel demotivated when i look at who gets in every year and nobody looks like me. i have always been insecure on my looks, i was bullied for my weight all through my teen years but even at my most confident i realise maybe the reason i cannot get in isn’t because of my talent.

i still want to do this but i don’t want to be working a minimum wage supermarket part time job for the rest of my life. i truly don’t know what i want to do other than this. do i find a whole new career path? change my look? or try another path in getting there.

i feel like a complete failure and no matter how hard i try nothing changes and everyone around my age is already succeeding and im still here dealing with the deep depression and coping mechanisms i had as a teenager. i want out of this but i don’t know how.

it feels like my abusive mother who always told me i couldn’t make this my career was right and i really should just do something i hate for eternity

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u/ultimatekiwistrawb — 6 days ago