Finally sharing some things
Hi
So, we've never really talked about this before, but we'd just like to share, maybe get some opinions and what others have went through, how similar or different it was to us, since we know everyone is always different
We'll personally identifying information as much as possible, even though saying this alone could honestly be personally identifying, but not many choices here
At first it was just the host, the host (as far as we know) is the primary owner of the body, he's currently twenty
Over time he started noticing some things happening, memory gaps, people suddenly popping out of no where, issues at school (this was around elementary/middle school) and generally just confusing things
He started researching, looking up things, trying to understand, and eventually started writing stuff around his phone as a way of trying to monitor the memory gaps, and eventually he got a response, let's call the person who responded X
The host, let's call him H, only knew about X until last year, where he figured out by coincidence that there were other people and not just X, which caused H to stress and have a lot of issues at the time be he actually managed to quickly adapt and accept it
Where we live, therapy isn't really something anyone cares about, we have tried over time even before H realized it's not just X and we were mostly diagnosed with Schizophrenia and even were given Schizophrenia medication which did absolutely nothing
We are fully sure about what what we are, who we are, how we are, we are sure about most of the trauma that caused us to be, but we are kind of lost, we're just here, trying to adapt and deal with things, constantly writing notes and trying to avoid getting triggered especially since we still live with the person who caused our trauma, but we're not sure where to go from here
We're trying to look for a job, but that's hard to do with how unpredictable our switches are, most of the time it's actually H and X switching so it's more manageable than a lot of people we've heard about, but it's still hard, especially having to deal with a job while we're undiagnosed
As you can probably tell H is incredibly smart, which is something that is kind of helping to keep things relatively under control, but we don't think that'll always be the case, we all have a lot of respect for him, but we don't know how to help when we're still forced to be stuck where we are
We're not asking for help about this, just to clear that up, we're just asking what exactly would be a good way of thinking here?
We use tools to organize our digital lives, we use tools to organize our memories and daily journals, we use tools to organize ourselves on an inside level (like Simply Plural and stuff) so we are kind of doing the most we can physically do to try and have a clear path, yet we are still too lost
Sorry for the long paragraph, just trying to put everything on my mind here
Thanks for reading if you did, we wish everyone a good day/night