stress post-party
for the past 2 years i’ve barely socialised, i struggle with social anxiety and 2 days ago i made friends. this girl in my class invited me to drink with her friend group, it went well, that was fun, although i was still anxious. yesterday she invited me to her house with that same friend group again, it went well, but i feel like i messed up, maybe i was too harsh sometimes, maybe i said things i shouldn’t have, maybe i tried to be included too much too quickly? i’m so scared, what if they hate me now, and i can’t see them tomorrow at uni and make sure they still like me, cuz it’s school break rn, i don’t know what to do, i’m sweating rn cuz i feel like they’re talking in my back, i feel like they’re rejecting me and are going to kick me out of the group chat. i haven’t made friends at all this year, i was so happy to finally make new friends again, but i feel like i messed up and that i’m not like she thought i was, maybe i should stop talking and isolate myself forever
what i’d like to know is, are some of you also living this? do you have this same stress post-socialising? is it because of my bpd or my social anxiety?