u/trans-duckie-boy

Hello everyone! Blessed Sunday to you all! 🥰 I’m going to try to keep this short so I don’t waste anyone’s time 🥹 do any of you use any good prayer/bible apps as LGBTQ+ practicing Catholics (Hallow is obviously a no-go) that you really like for iOS? Something with audio through the year daily Bible readings, the rosary, etc? I’m struggling and don’t want to give any money to Ascension or Hallow personally, given they’re very obviously traditional and expensive to boot. 🥲 thank you for your help!

Hey there y’all. Y’all have been absolutely fantastic and so lovely in this group that I’ve made the decision to become Episcopal (would say I’m more Anglo-Catholic in practices at home but I digress!) officially next winter before the next Easter season after attending and enjoying a service at the cathedral in my city, as it’s where I feel Jesus is leading me. 🏳️‍🌈✝️ I even ordered a really nice rainbow themed Anglican rosary to pray with (definitely helps my ADHD brain with prayer) and a new NRSVue bible with tabs, because it’s the one I’ve seen so many people here mention after days of scrolling the subreddit here. I’ve started listening to my worship music again (still love contemporary worship tbh 🥲) and praying again.

My question is… how can I faithfully and properly read the Bible as a transgender, queer Christian and not feel… like I used to when I was on the conservative side of Christianity? Like I’m doing something wrong, sinning by being myself, etc, just by opening God’s Word as a queer and trans individual who loves Jesus and was saved? It’s something that’s been on my mind ever since I pressed the “place order” button on that new bible, if I’m honest. I know this might seem like a no brainer to some folk, but it’s… a really hard thing for me to undo all that painful conditioning, that I’m almost… scared?… of what I might find in those words in red. I still hold some of my traditional beliefs about Christianity (like about God’s Word itself being really true, Hell being permanent if I don’t choose to follow Christ, etc, just not about queer and trans folk being a sin) but I don’t want to tell other folks what to do. I know some people might disagree with me, but that’s not what this post is about, for the most part, I suppose, I think I’m just trying to cohesively make this make sense on a tired brain.

I don’t want to run from my faith in Christ again. I don’t want to doubt His love and saving work on the cross anymore. I want to follow Jesus forever. And I want to fall back in love with God’s Word again. I just am worried I’ll hit a roadblock. A lot of the Bible apps, except for one, are very very obviously made for straight, cis, conservative, evangelical Christians, and the Episcopal ones I’ve found and downloaded don’t really have what I’m looking for in terms of Bible study plans, daily readings, things like that, and seem more for just praying the Daily Office or using the BCP, which is great, but I want something not as geared towards conservative Christians for reading the Bible. I feel a bit lost. 🥲

Anyway, I don’t want to ramble. Thank you if you made it this far. Thank you for any positive feedback or suggestions. I love this subreddit and I’m excited to go to church tomorrow as *me*. Much appreciated y’all, and may God bless you. ✝️🏳️‍🌈❤️