I fell wholeheartedly in love with my wife in 1984. We married in 1987. Raised 3 sons into self supporting adults each building on a family of their own. In 2001 we had a rough patch when she had an online relationship. We decided to stick it out for the boys. But I don’t think we ever really recovered this. She has slowly shut me out of anything and all effection over the years. I am now 60 and we just occupy the same house. From the outside looking in it probably isn’t noticeable. But finally hit me Sunday we were going to the lake to day camp with the kids and grands. I had to take a call to support a coworker while I loaded the car. In that distraction, I forgot to load lawn chairs. I realized this about 3 blocks from home and had to go back. This infuriated her. She called me a few names and complained that I was on the phone. I got the chairs and while driving to the lake she criticized my shirt, and said my hair looks stupid under my hat. Which I find funny. She is the only person to cut my hair since 1984.. But later in the day it just hit me like a ton of bricks that I don’t want to continue this way of living. I still love her and will forever, but it is obvious she doesn’t love me, and hasn’t for years.
It’s completely comical that I have stayed here. I am such a damn fool.