u/todoro78

I feel like my life has been taken over. All my issues stem from this problem I have with this disease and I feel like I never get a moment of rest. I try really hard to not let it affect me and have tried many things over the years to mitigate the symptoms but I just feel like something new always comes up. The biggest problem is the weight. I feel like everyone in my life is always reminding me like I don’t live in this body and can’t feel and see how big I am. My parents, aunts, uncles, and kids are always reminding me in small ways how I’m fat and need to lose weight. I feel like that’s all they see and all I am. I honestly feel like I even have pretty thick skin considering and don’t try to let it affect me but tonight I just broke. I was playing uno with my cousins and sister and one of my cousins/ best friend was getting angry that she was losing and so she got insulty. She’s coming for everyone and at one point, while no one else hears, just me and to me she says. At least I’m small and skinny. And this is the girl that’s always telling me I’m beautiful and not to listen to anyone. It really goes to show that even though I thought she saw me as beautiful, deep down it’s still just my weight and that no one will ever just look at me and not the weight. I just broke down when I got home. I feel like if I don’t take control of my pcos and my weight I’ll always be this disgusting thing to those around me and will never be able to actually live. I’m sorry for dragging I just needed to rant and see if anyone has any advice.