Now it’s becoming habit
I don’t know if this is a confession or a cry for help, but I really want to say this out loud.
I started smoking 4 months ago not because I needed it, but to fit in, to look “cool,” to be a part of a group. Somewhere in between, it became something I turned to during a tough relationship phase… and now I feel stuck in a loop.
I smoke 3–4 cigarettes a day. My lips are getting darker, I get out of breath sometimes, and honestly, I don’t even feel like myself anymore.
The hardest part? I want to quit. I’ve tried. I stayed away for 3–4 days… but then I go back, especially when I’m around friends who smoke. It’s like I lose control in that moment.
And today… I smoked again.
I’m not proud of it. But I’m also not giving up.
If you’ve ever been through this or have any real advice, I’d genuinely appreciate it. I want to break this cycle before it becomes something worse.