I've met a very nice guy and he's asking me out on a date
I don't know what to do. I want to meet him, but I'm scared. My mom says my voice is not male. People don't mistake me for a man when they hear my voice. Yesterday a woman from bank called me and called my current legal name (male) and said "miss, please, get him on the phone", I said it was my data and she said "miss, I don't have time for jokes". I was so happy that she identified my voice as female, because it's one of my worst insecurities because of testosterone.
but I had a mastectomy. I'm a breastless woman. Moreover, I had a keyhole mastectomy so I don't have scars and my chest looks very male... I don't know how to tell this guy about it. Should I?... The majority of guys like breasts. I have none. He also said he wants family and kids. It's my dream too. But what if he ghosts me because I'm not capable of breastfeeding?
he says he felt strong connection to me the moment he saw me and that I look very beautiful, but he doesn't know my story. I don't know if i should tell him before we meet. He's a boxer and I have anxiety that he can do something to me if he thinks I'm trans or if he knows I WAS trans. Apart from that I'm scared that he would not see me as a woman anymore when he finds out I'm detrans.
additional info: we're Russian and turned out he lives in my area in the city. in Russia detrans and trans is basically the same thing. like "you dared to change your sex once so you'll never be a woman again".
I'm actually just hate myself so much for transitioning in the first place. It ruined my life. Detransitioning ruined it too because now I'm a freak. I'm so scared. But I want to try because I want love, I want to date, I want a man to love me, I want to have kids in future.
What should I do? What did you do if you were in a situation like me?