u/thereisnogreatergold

pretty much as the title states, i checked amazon prime but much like everything else on there, it's behind a paywall.

I'm 16F and I recently tried to attempt but I ended up being too scared to fully go through with it and gave up. I've felt ideation since I was around 10 years old and my level of it tends to fluctuate where sometimes it feels like everything's finally okay, but mostly i just feel awful. Right now the only thing keeping me going is my dog and the guilt of leaving my parents childless (especially my mother because she's very codependent on me), but I want to find an actual---more selfish reason to keep going.