A year out of high school and I still feel like a child
I just recently turned 19 and have been out of school for a year now. I hate to say I miss it but I do. I miss having structure and routine, and feeling like I am still young. I think when I was in high school I was experiencing a lot of depression which made me kind of miss out on the traditional “teen” milestones, I feel like I have been asleep all that time and just now I’m experiencing the awkward teenage phase or something. I still look and act childish. I don’t see myself on the same level as other adults who are older than I am. Am I still even a teenager? I haven’t even been 19 a month and the idea of turning 20 is so horrifying to me on a visceral level, I felt the same way about turning 18 too. Does it get any easier? Is what I’m feeling normal?