u/thechocolatefroggy

I've made massive improvements after reducing my dose to the lowest possible one. (I take amisulpride. I reduced to 170mg from 200mg)

I have Motivation again and fun playing videogames. Its still not 100% but its only been 3 weeks on the new dose and last time it took me about 2 months to get improvements. I'm feeling very hopeful right now, gotta be honest. I wanted to share that. It will take some trial and error to get onto the perfect dose, but its worth it.

I used to be creative and right now, this is the thing i'm missing the most. In addition to that, i also used to be very interested in science and studies. I feel like my purpose is gone. I'm only focusing on looks at the time. But they will fade one day (and i'm mid), so i'm always asking myself what i will focus on when fashion doesn't work anymore, when i'm old. Will i be a complete ghost of myself then? It scares me... i've become so superficial since becoming anhedonic. This is not me. I'm not myself anymore. Does anyone feel like this? I miss having a purpose, even if it was never really applied and just in my head and a hobby.. it makes me bitter and cold. I also started to get annoyed at everything, mostly people. I always feel like they're all the same somehow because i can't relate to them anymore because of the anhedonia...