Reflecting on future direction
Hey, so since losing the internship I previously had, I've been applying to other ones now that more jobs are coming out. Both through my university's board and externally.
I've got an software engineering interview coming up for one next Monday for a local business, which likely won't have a very technical process. I'll be competing with only 3-4 other university students. These students are looking for a job right now and chances are that's because they had no previous experience; most of the students at my unviersity have already found jobs through the program right now and started working.
Given all this, I can infer that I'll likely get accepted for the role since I have actual experience; unless I'm a culture mismatch, like I was for another gaming company. Though I doubt that'll be the case here.
The job description of the business, however, is underwhelming. I'm very sure none of the tasks will challenge me technically speaking. The business also doesn't provide software solutions primarily, so software is a secondary aspect, which means I likely won't be able to move within the business to different areas to grow technically.
But, from the dhamma point of view, this is great. Since the business isn't moving fast, especially technically, it means work life balance will likely be great. The business also seems to be looking for long-term employees given all the people working there have been there for more than 5+ years. The pay is also alright (~60k/year).
But I'm not sure whether I should prioritize the dhamma right now or later? My plan was to get a job that'd pay around 100k yearly, work for 4-5 years to save money for my family, and then ordain since I wouldn't be having this insurmountable feeling of debt to them. Of course, I'd still try my best to keep the precepts (failing right now) and be secluded within this.
If I accept this offer, and don't work on improving myself technically outside of work, it'll be fairly difficult for me to secure a better paying job in the future after graduation. But, if I do well, I can likely get a return offer there and stay for a long time, since that's what the culture there seems like.
Before, I was thinking of altogether not even interviewing for it because of how easy the work sounded and the limited opportunity it provided. But then I asked myself why I was looking for worldly growth so much? And what the limit for that growth should be? And since I wasn't able to answer them, and remembered the sutta where the Buddha was said to be the 'destroyer of worldly growth', I decided to reconsider my views on what I should be doing.
Currently, I'm thinking that if I get the offer, I'll accept it and just do open source work at the side, and study over weekends to eventually get some certifications. This way, I'll have an income with good enough work life balance to afford physical seclusion, whilst also not effectively destroying career.
But on the other hand, I have online assessments for other companies that are far more reputable, that I might be able to pass since I've been practicing for technical interviews. Getting into these would also likely give me far superior technical experience. But I'm not sure what my chances are for actually getting an offer from them right now. So pretty confused with what to do with these in the current situation.
Would appreciate any perspectives on this.