u/teenytinypeanut

I’m taking my respite client out and about around today and would love to walk around at a market or go to a community event. Anything going on?

I never got my full license but was learning to drive when I was told to stop and that it would be illegal for me to drive by my ophthalmologist. I have a lot of usable vision and function completely normally so far (minus driving), so whenever I talk about how I can’t drive to go pick things up or do things that require a car, he says “you can just drive and you don’t need all these people telling you what to do”. It’s incredibly frustrating and I’m so sick and tired of it. He’s been extremely supportive in all other aspects but he’s a big “f the establishment” type guy and believes that they took my license away wrongfully. He says things like “it’s at your own risk” but really it’s at the risk of everyone around me if I can’t see them. It’s SO frustrating to continue to have this conversation and explain to him that NO I can not drive. For one, I don’t even have a license. For two, it’s DANGEROUS. For three, why does he think his opinion trumps that of the world renowned ophthalmologist who is trying to KEEP ME SAFE? I’m going nuts.

It’s 2am where I’m at. I have a phone appointment with my retina specialist in the morning. I’m so stressed out every time an appointment comes up and this time I simply can’t sleep. I binged the entire season of “big mistake” on Netflix and now I’m just left with my thoughts. I hate this whole thing and wish I didn’t have to deal with this. Just needed to tell someone.