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what if i have a doctors appt tmrw and i ask about minoxidil again? last time he said my iron was too low and i wasn’t getting enough sleep. i was devastated. i cried the car ride home. im scared of my doctor too because he has said things that made me cry before. i have felt insecure about my hair everyday for the past ten years. most of it grew back but my hairline. i have been hyper aware of it everytime i go outside. how does anyone get enough sleep, drink enough water, exercise enough, eat healthy, AND get good grades??? is that even possible?? i dont think being insecure about my appearance helps with that either. what’s do i do, i feel terrible thinking about it

17 in canada

boi is it like you have to be president of something before grade 12 bc i literally have NOTHING. i’m not even an exec of anything. i’m just general members of some clubs. i don’t do sports either. this fucking sucks i wish i liked sports. i have no awards since high school. idk what to do and it feels terrible because i know i have potential. i was just too scared to do anything when i was younger. i JUST learned how to genuinely socialize after years of anxiety (bad timing and embarrassing ikr). as a result all of my skills are in my head and i have no concrete experiences. that’s why im so bad at interviews.

i mean im so glad ive gotten better but i’m still at my own pace (behind) while i was expected to develop these basic skills years ago.

theres an exec app due today for something. they rejected me once and there wasn’t even many applicants, that’s really embarrassing. my interview skills haven’t gotten better so i expect to be rejected again but should i just apply even though im so embarrassed?

no one in my household (mostly my mom) has common sense in the kitchen. there’s so much cross contamination. so much money, food, and materials like plastic are being wasted and its pmo everyday. like buying so much takeout, using so much plastic wrap, buying things they wont use and letting them rot. all the leftovers in the fridge are not from me. i cook all my food bc i dont rlly trust others to cook for me. i feel bad when ppl make things for me and i dont eat it

im 17, graduating soon, big events. ive had alopecia since i was 7. most of it grew back. right now, i have a full head of hair except my hairline is really far back. its not growing anytime soon, its been around 5-6 years.

i was wondering why i felt so tired after going outside. i realized how its taken such a big mental toll on me for years. im always aware of how my hair looks and i cant function like this anymore. its my biggest insecurity. most my friends dont know i had alopecia, so they just think i have a bad hairline which is even worse.

i cant tie my hair up or put it behind my ears. it does not look good. im missing out on cute hairstyles. im inconveniencing myself everyday. i feel so self conscious when i have to tie it for a chem lab, cook with people, sports. when i dont tie it when i have to, the teacher asks me why and my heart drops.

i dont do sports partially because ill have to tie my hair. but once i said i didnt want to play guitar because i had to cut the long nails i always had and ruin my soft hands. but i have a guitar now and my nails are short. i have calluses on my left hand.

other than family, i let one person see me with my hair clipped up only a couple months ago. i feel safe with my best friend. its just one person, but it feels so free and i feel so much happier. i cant imagine how happy id be if i could just clip my hair up in public.

during covid, i refused to turn on my camera. for two years i would have heated arguments with my parents because my teachers sent emails that i wasnt turning on my camera. it was so annoying because it wasnt a big deal to keep my camera off. it was the biggest deal to me to turn it on because i was fucking half bald and i looked like a boy with a bad haircut. my parents did not seem to notice that even after i told them i looked ugly. my mom kicked me out of the house once and i walked around my neighborhood for an hour in the cold winter.

i felt like the ugliest person in the world in 8th grade. it got a bit better after but im still so self conscious. i actually like everything about my appearance other than my hair. it ruins me and i can’t accept that it fell. its hard to look at my childhood pictures. i used to wear wigs and hats when i was little and people would ask if i have cancer. i could not stop crying while writing this, so yes this has had a huge impact on me for ten years.

i need to change something. ive been wanting to do minoxidil for a long time but im young and its invasive and ill have to do it forever. im not the healthiest person ever and i dont want to mess with my body. a year ago i asked my doctor about it after building a lot of courage, he said my iron was a bit low and i needed to get my period back (yes i have it back now). i sobbed for the whole car ride home because that was so embarrassing. i always eat really healthy but i dont sleep enough, drink enough water, or exercise.

i could also shave my head, which im not opposed to. i did it once when i was younger. ive heard stories from people shaving their heads. i would really benefit from shaving my head but i would still miss my hair.

i dont know what to do

my chem teacher used chatgpt to write our last test (he admitted it when we asked). i did horrible on it. the last two tests (not ai) were 90s, this one is a 60. maybe it’s a me problem? everyone thought the test was easy, i was really confident. i’m confused on how i got a 60. i mean i just got my grade back, not the test yet but i cant stop thinking about it. im so bummed. the test was so fishy. the format was so ai, the multiple choice was all a and b, he didnt even bother to change it to the other letters. the written part was a bit too easy? i did my homework like everyone else and had no problem. how did i do so badly on the test? i feel like if it wasnt ai i would do better but other people got good marks so idk. there were a lot of ppl who were confident about it and were disappointed with their mark. is he even allowed to use ai to write a test?? hes so lazy smh 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️