what is it?/what can i do about it?
I've recently had some issues regarding compulsions. i haven't been able to get professional help for different reasons, so all i do is investigate on the internet and I'm still trying to figure out the reason behind it
i had a similar problem when i was younger, probably around 8 or 10 years. i spat a lot in many inconvenient situations because i thought my mouth was dusty and got in trouble for it. sometimes i stopped everything to hold my breath for a few seconds.
i also had a tendency to blink excessively, i had to blink a certain amount of times in a certain period of time or else it wouldn't feel right and i would have to do it again. i never knew how to explain that
i can't remember how i came to stop doing that, but i was "free" for a time.
now though, i got new compulsions, mainly related to tapping a certain amount of times or in a specific rhythm. it happens a lot when i use my phone, i get the urge to tap and swipe nonsensically, and have to start all over again if i don't do it "right".
and just generally when i'm going about my day, i will suddenly stop to blink, tap, or turn my head a certain way and i'm stuck doing that if i get distracted or involuntarily tense up until it feels right. i feel like i waste a big part of my day with this
from what I've gathered, this is similar to what some people with OCD experience, but i don't want to self diagnose or anything
i want to know what else could be causing this to me and what i can do about it