I know you all probably see posts like this a lot, but I really just need to vent.
My husband was supposed to be gone for 6 months, and I just found out it’s now going to be 9. This is the third time his return date has been pushed back, and I honestly feel like I’m one breakdown away from completely losing it.
This is his first deployment, and we really had no idea what to expect. I know he’s dealing with a lot where he is, and I try my best to be strong and support him, but I’m having a really hard time supporting myself right now.
I work full-time, and on top of that I drive an extra 30 minutes both morning and night just to take my dog to daycare. I’m grateful I can afford it and that she loves it, but the reality is it turns my day into about an hour and a half of driving morning and evening. It’s exhausting, and it’s starting to wear me down.
I don’t really have a support system nearby—both my family and his are across the country. Most days it just feels like I’m doing everything alone.
What’s been hitting me the hardest lately is social media. Every time I open Facebook or TikTok, I see homecomings and spouses being reunited. I’m happy for them, I really am, but it also breaks my heart a little more every time because I just want that to be me. And right now, it feels like it never will be.
I’ve heard a million times, “this is what you signed up for,” but that doesn’t make it easier. I feel like I’m losing my mind some days.
I don’t go out much I’d rather just stay home with my dog. I was also doing school on top of work, but I had to pause because it became too overwhelming. I told myself I’d pick it back up when he comes home… but now that feels so far away.
I guess I’m just looking for advice, or even just some encouragement from people who get it. This extension hit me harder than I expected, and I’m really struggling.
Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this.