AITA for kicking my bf out but now wanting to reconcile for our family?
Brief summary - I kicked my bf out the house last year because I reached a dark place. I was depressed, lost my job and wasn’t financially able to keep up the bills. He had also no income at the time to support me and our family. At the time, I was depleted and overwhelmed and felt unsupported plus additional years of hurt stored inside of me from our relationship.
Months later, he came around and asked for us to work things out which we have been doing for the last 5 months but he refuses to come back home. He associates the house with shame and humiliation while I’m longing for our little family to become whole again. He’s gone to the extent of saying he will NEVER go back in the home.
Now he is house hopping from friends and family while I’m home with our little one and seeing him in between. When I bring the topic of coming back, it triggers everything in him. Is it bad that I feel like I made a mistake but want my family back? He admits that he knows I love him but he said he can’t afford to be humiliated again. Thoughts? Do I keep fighting?
Everyone around him has told him to go back home but he continues to hold the hurt and says he needs to heal the part of him that I humiliated.