I feel like a terrible mom
My 3 week old newborn baby is staying the night at my moms house because I need to get some sleep and I feel terrible about it. Age gap is 16 months and my toddler is extremely clingy and needy and also wakes up at 5am everyday. Both kids need me at all times of the day and I’m with them alone all day.
My husband only got a week off from work and he is gone from 5am-5pm Mon-Fri. He also doesn’t do any night shifts cause he needs to be “rested for work” so it’s all on me. My newborn is a very fussy and gassy baby, I suspect she has reflux. She doesn’t sleep more than a 1 hour stretch at night and then from 2am onwards I have to hold her to sleep so that she’s comfortable. I am maybe getting 30 min to an hour of sleep each night and I started hallucinating from sleep deprivation so my mom offered to take her for the night and I agreed. I never did this with my son and I never would’ve even entertained the thought of leaving him for the night. I did every single nap and bedtime with him up until I gave birth. So now I just feel like I did her so wrong. I feel so exhausted and depleted and I desperately need to sleep but I just feel terrible like I abandoned her. She is EBF and she is having a hard time sleeping without nursing. I just feel so terrible and empty right now. Idk how I’m going to go to sleep tonight knowing that she is not doing so well. Please tell me it gets better