Can I worship Coatlicue?
Hi everyone!! This is a bit of a lengthy post, but I have so many questions. I am Mexican and my family comes from Mexico and were are mostly mestizos, I know for sure that we have Spanish ancestry but I have no idea what indigenous group(s) we might be mixed with. This has caused a bit of a stump for, especially when it comes to worship. I grew up Catholic, but felt a deep love and connection to La Virgen de Guadalupe. To me, she was like God and l felt more comfortable with her than with Jesus or God. I found out some time ago that there is a big possibility that La Virgen is likely a synchronization of mestizaje, specifically with Coatlicue. All I know is that she is venerated as a "mother earth" type of deity and is a patron of childbirth, life and death. It got me thinking that maybe that connection I felt was with her and not really La Virgen. I left Catholicism years ago and have been in a stump ever since. I thought getting into my "indigenous roots" might help, but I feel so lost. Do I even have the right to worship her if I don't know my full heritage? I'm unfamiliar with most Aztec folklore and history, and my family is heavily Catholic and Christian (which makes this harder to do). If I can worship her, where do I even start? Sacrifice isn't much of a problem for me, its just reaching out, offerings, and speaking to her that is hard (and I don't speak Nahuatl either). All of this is so confusing, any help would be deeply appreciated.