u/strawb3rryy3

i am feeling very suicidal right now. i feel so very close to ending it all. I keep relapsing with self harm.

i hate everything about myself. I’m a terrible wife. all i wanted was to make her happy and all i do is make her sad and feel not understood. i just want to understand.
i want to be what she needs. i’m in love with her. i want to be better for her and take care of her.

why am i so dumb? why am i so pathetic? why am i even here?

everything hurts so bad.

i don’t want to stress out the people i love by feeling this way. i don’t want to cause them sadness when i go. it’s hard to want to live when all i do is make things worse. all i do is make mistakes. i’m a waste of space.

when i was younger, i didn’t want to make it past a certain age. now im so lost. all of my feelings are rushing back from back then. it would’ve been better for everyone if my first suicide attempt was a success.

hopefully this one is better.