u/stephsilnieks

My cat is named Chip and hes been diabetic for 2 years. I just got a glucometer recently like 3 weeks ago and i check his blood sugar twice a day. (we had an incident where he went hypoglycemic so the glucometer is much needed). I have watched a million youtube videos over and over again and looked up the sweet spot and the area/veins in the ear. I do the outside outer edge of his ear. I cna sometimes draw blood first try. But other times it takes me 5-6 pricks to get his blood. I am SO STRESSED and feel so guilty that I have to keep poking him. I know its for his own good. I'm just hoping I can get better. Its breaking my heart. Anyone else having this problem?

I am so depressed and ive been crying for hours/ Ive talked to family, i have doctors and medication and therapy. But its still not enough. Everything feels impossible. Nobody can help me it seems. I keep reaching out for help and I cant get it. I need to know im not alone. Please tell me how you get through these low low hopeless phases. I am not going to harm myself or others and not suicidal. I am just deepy deeply depresssed and feel SOO alone . I dont know why I'm typing. I just need someone to say something.