u/sportsandgames07

Relapsed after 8 months clean from all drugs. It has only taken a few weeks for me to remember just how low stimulants made me feel. I don't even know if I am in a comedown right now or what, but I am having the most intense feelings of depression, despair, and hoplessness. I have just sat here without distraction and allowed myself to feel it. I never want to feel this way again. I have to remind myself that I do not have to if I stay clean. I always forget just how bad we can feel mentally sometimes.