I cut up a block of tofu into slices, put it in a ziplock bag with peri peri sauce and marinated it in the fridge for a few hours then just fried them until they were browned. I'd already eaten a few slices but I'd say I had 1/3 of the pack so 20g of protein just in these "nuggets".
I feel like you either like the texture of tofu or you don't. I love it but it was an immediate NOPE for my mum who isn't a picky eater in any way.
I'm at my wits end. I've been binding for 10 years now and it's getting ridiculous. I take it off at home and wear my old, basically useless binder or a tight sports bra unless I'm having a bad time with dysphoria which I have been for the last 6 months so I'm wearing my proper one entirely too much like I used to when I was younger. Now it hurts to fully inhale without my binder. It's been like that for a while but I've only just recently realised the connection.
All that said, I don't know when I'll have the money to get it through health insurance and out of pocket and I can't keep going on like this. My GP knows F all about trans people let alone SRS and we don't talk about it aside from me getting my shots. I don't know who else to ask. At least I'd have some kind of definite idea of having top surgery and something to work towards / stay alive for.
Capsicum. Just capsicum, onion, and garlic basically plus chillies if you're into that but I can't do spicy (yet). I've been thinking it's this whole bunch of flavours that I don't like but it's made of the powder of one of the only vegetables I like.
I got my ready to eat chicken substituted for the same thing but in peri peri flavour and I just said fuck it, I'll try it. It was delicious!!
I've never been around people who were nice about being big. I developed extreme social anxiety and agoraphobia as a teen due to severe bullying about my weight. I remember I was 108kg at 11 and 135kg and 5'7 at 13 and basically treated like a freak show. Even my brother would bully me with his friends in school. My parents and family were no better despite being partially responsible for my diet.
Is this a fetish thing? Because I don't want to be fat, specifically for health reasons (I feel like absolute shit). I was 182kg at 17 and had WLS a week before my 18th birthday**. I lost 110kg and felt amazing. Then I came out and turned to the bottle to cope with all the untapped trauma i'd kept bottled from years of living a lie. yadda yadda yadda, I've been 120kg for 2 years now and while I'm not giving up on weight loss or at least trying not to gain, I need to learn that I'm not worthless because I'm fat.
I like big guys but it is incomprehensible for me to believe I could be fat and have anyone want me. I do talk to people online sometimes but I'm just a fetish to them being fat and a trans man.
That's a lot of words when I could just say... Is this a gainer sub? I'm gonna be very disappointed if it is.
**I am now 29 and also have loose/saggy skin.