u/solitarydaydreamer

I (F) trimmed my pubic hairs and almost nicked myself a few times. Not long after, I went to pee. A small amount came out instead of a full stream and it burned. The burning sensation has lingered on, but is less intense than the first 30 mins after. I'm 4.5 hours out from the trim and the current intensity of the burning is probably at a 2-2.5/10 on the discomfort scale. Still there, but not unbearable. My hairs are so prickly and uncomfortable, which I find worse than my urethral opening being irritated rn.

I really hope it's temporary irritation and I haven't caused a UTI. I really don't want to keep taking more antibiotics, as I currently am for a separate issue.

Genuinely asking because I struggle to think of something I actually want to do. I’m in my early twenties and my only work experience consists of being in an office job, which I hated and I cried pretty much every day I was there because I struggled to meet deadlines. Eventually I had a mental breakdown and have been pretty much doing nothing ever since.

I can't think of anything I want to do or anything I'd be good at because all of the things that would make a job more bearable for me narrow down the pool significantly and I lack ambition or interest. My AuDHD makes everything so much harder to get through. I just about survived school and university after obliterating my mental health in the process.

A job that I could handle:

• Jobs that don't have very strict deadlines. I crumble every time I have to do something quickly or have to be always on the go. I know for some with AuDHD it can be helpful to have scaffolding, but I can't handle it without feeling anxious tbh.

• One that doesn't involve heavy desk work. Occasional write-ups are fine as long as there are no tight deadlines. I also think back to how in school I'd prefer practical tasks or meeting-style lessons with no written work.

• A job that isn't super public-facing like any in the service industry. While I love and appreciate the things they do, I would be horrible in any of those roles. I get anxious even speaking to them as the customer, my social awkwardness and lack of people skills will probably have me instantly fired anyway.

• Jobs that are accommodating to disabled and ND folks. I’m disabled on top of AuDHD, so I need to be in an environment where there is flexibility in how I do things.

• A job that doesn't involve me being on camera. I’m very camera-shy and hate taking pictures of my face.

• A job that doesn't involve intensive physical labour.

• A job that doesn't require good fine motor skills.

• A job that isn't extremely underpaid. Yes, I know I've cancelled out the vast majority of well-paying jobs, but I want to be able to make enough to survive on my own, even if it's not a huge amount.

Surprisingly, my only skill is public speaking, but I have to have everything fully prepared and memorised beforehand. I'm not good at improvising. In the past, I've been praised for my clarity and eloquence when speaking and have even won awards for it, back when I still had hope.

Is there any job I could do seeing as I've ruled out most of the typical ones? I’m so jealous of people I know making bank in corporate roles because I could never do that myself without damaging my mental health. Most of the people I know don't enjoy it, but it's just a way to get by given the cost of living situation.

I only noticed it today, but when I press on the inner left calf it seems to ache. It's not unbearable, but still noticeable. It's not red or swollen, but that area feels *slightly* firmer than the inner right calf, but subtly so. I can still walk on it and move around as usual. I've read about DVTs and how they evolve in different ways, and I've heard cases of people who've had a clot even without any of the usual symptoms.

At the same time I'm wondering if I’m overreacting. Yesterday I did a lot more walking than usual, which can lead to a slight strain on the muscle.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to discuss something different but not far removed from the issue, so wondered if I should address this.

Any advice would be appreciated.