I really don’t get how people are doing this and how to survive going forward :(
I’m six months PP. The hardest six months of my life for real. It feels like each week/month there is a new challenge and it gets harder in a way.
My husband is in law-school so I take care of the baby all day while he’s gone and I have done the nights by myself since the start. I still get the nighttime scaries because it’s just been traumatic sometimes. My husband is a great guy, but he has to get some sleep for school so he’s not really able to help overnight. He is also a very deep sleeper and wouldn’t be that helpful anyway, like I would worry.
From months 3 up until now I’ve been bed-sharing which honestly saved my life because I was able to get some sleep.
My baby is rolling now and we want to get him back in the bassinet, which he doesn’t love, he wakes up every couple hours now and that’s if he even falls asleep. So I’m back to barely getting any sleep and struggling with the decision to either stay up almost all night trying to make my baby sleep in his bassinet or bring him in bed and worry it’s dangerous.
I don’t know what to do and I feel like no one else is struggling on the level that I am. I’m truly in a dark place and I’m not really looking to be told I have PPD because that may be true, but it’s mainly the sleep deprivation that is messing with me.
How do you do it? What should I do? Has anyone been here?
I talk to everyone I can…the dental hygienist, friends, family, neighbors and ask them how they did it and even had multiple children and I always get some vague answer. It’s making me sad because I’d like more than one child but no idea how I would manage.
Edit: just FYI we have been trying to sleep train, Ferber method, not full on but letting him cry 5-10 minutes. He’s a pretty light sleeper, wants his hand held for naps the entire time, that sort of thing.
I also find having the baby monitor next to me during the night gives me a lot of anxiety. Like a ticking time bomb.