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If you cannot understand my silence

You’ll never understand my words

If friendship means ‘FairPlay ‘

Then wedding means ‘war’

The minute you say ‘I Do ‘

You are condemned to ‘being wrong’

Coz a Man will always be right

No matter what’s the issue

Doesn’t matter who started the fight

For a man it’s alright to have an Ego

For a woman even self respect is a blasphemy

I ask what is life without trust

Hollow like love without respect

If this is what you want…

Then there’s more to say

Coz I f you cannot understand my silence you ‘ll never understand my pain

I wish you all the happiness, good luck & joy

What I got in my share is enough for a thousand lives…

The lines are blurred, the memories faded

But the scars are still there

Don’t know when love dried up

‘Am sure it died a painful death

You always had your priorities right

First Friends and Family

No ! No ! Never Me !

I’m just an outsider

Neither friend nor blood

How can I be ‘Family ‘

There’s no life left in Me

What’s here is merely a shadow

I accept my faults

I accept defeat

I want nothing from you

JUST LET ME BE !!!

It’s our children who need ‘US’

& that’s why I’ll stay

Despite all your accusations

No matter what you say…

All good things come to an end

The happily ever after is such a farce

It was fun while it lasted

But ,

If you cannot understand my silence

You’ll never understand me pain …

I love your tender touch

That says so much

I love your demanding kiss

That I often miss

I love the gentle look in your eyes

& I swoon over your mischievous smile

I love the way you cuddle me in your arms

that makes me feel contented,safe and warm

I love the way you caress my hair a touch that says ‘I care ‘

Driving away all my worries my fears

I even love your sulky frowns

I love your love for me

I love you for being youuu

& also for being mine only !

It adds an extra glow to my cheeks

Sweeping me in ecstasy

I love you for all that you do for me

& also for all that you do me

I hope you too feel the same way

As I do & that the feelings are here to stay !!

A little boat in deep blue sea at the break of dawn ,

Is what I love to see

The bond of trust, between nature and man so profound…

The gentle breeze the mist dew like a charming rhapsody, drives me in ecstasy

The chirping of birds, the gushes of wind

The sound of waves crashing on land

It’s all so perfect! So beautifully planned

The greatest painter

Who painted it all

YET has many more joys to enthrall us all ❣️

कु**छ बातें क**ई यादें

जाये****ंगी** म**ेरे साथ

सिमटी** मेरे **सीने में

लिपटी मे****रे कफ़न मैं

कु**छ एहसास**** ****वो **अल्फ़ाज़

जाये****ंगी** म**ेरे साथ

सिमटी** मेरे **सीने में

लिपटी मे****रे कफ़न मैं

कु**छ अच*्छी* क**ुछ खट्टी

मेरे सच**** मे*री* आप बीती

किस**ी से**** *कह* न**ा पाऊँ

किसी** *को* क्य**ा समझाऊँ

सबक**ा अपना नज़रिया**** सबकी **अपनी सोच

छोड़**ो क्या कहना** क्य**ा **सुनना जाने भी दो

कु**छ टूटे**** *मो*ह **के धागे

कु**छ भीगी पलकों** में टूटे वादे

व**ो नाउमीदियाँ **वो हसरतें

जायेंगी** म**ेरे साथ

यह ज़रूरी** नहीं सब** आपकी तरह हो

यह *मुमकिन नहीं कि हर दिल*** आईने** क**ी **तरह साफ़ हो

सबक**ी सोच सबका न**ज़रिया

एक जैसा नहीं होता

य**े ज़िंदगी है** साहब! लंबे हिसाब !

हर बा**र जैसे को तैसा** नहीं होता

मिठास बरकरार रख ,टक****राव बेफ़िज़ूल है

ज़िंदगी जो भी** इनाम** दे** ,हर शर्**त मुझे क़बूल है

उसक**ी दातें** बहुत ब****ड़ी** हैं ,बा**तें बहुत छोटी हैं

किसने** क्या किया **,क्यों ना किया

इसक**ा हिसाब बेफ**़िज़ूल है

कई बातें** कुछ** यादें जाएँगी मेरे साथ

दफ़**न मेरे**** *सी*ने में** लिपटी मेरे कफ़न में ..

(Maybe Lady Diana’s thoughts too …Love Is A Two Way Street)

How can we be lovers

When our thoughts don’t meet

This is just an arrangement

For the sake of my kids

You are already free

& I shall soon be !

What we had was so beautiful

But today is no less pretty

I’m out of bounds, out of love…

I’m free , flawed …full of flight

I shall soar and soar high

There will not be a moment

When i shall look back of sigh !

It’s your cross to carry me

Not for me to contemplate.

I forgive you for your pettiness,

While I do regret my mistakes.

I did have better options, ones I didn’t take….

COZ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME

Now I know it was a mistake

You aren’t worth my tears

Definitely neither respect nor love…

Coz love is a two way street

How can we be lovers

When our thoughts don’t meet..z

There are times

when future is but a dream

and life a reality,

When you want to be optimistic

but are grounded to fatality ….

There are times when going is smooth

When everything is in semblance

Like an organised deck !

YET there are times when you could strangle someone for first making you feel so high and then dumping you

WHAT THE HECK !!

There are times when you don’t understand the depth of your own emotions …

When you take others love for granted and ignore all notions ..

There are times when you feel let down

By ones for whom you were always around

There are times when you’re enraged

Blinded by fury,feeling trapped in a cage you can’t escape

Yet there are times

When you can kiss His Feet

For the happiness he brings

For the way he treats…

Yes ! Love can make you feel ALL of these

So it’s better to be loved & lost

Rather than just looking for peace !!

“It’s all about money…is it

Crumpled sheets , troubled hearts ..

A mess in bed , a mess in head

Too sick of life, too young to die

Too mature to fight, too much to forget

Why is it always about choosing when there is really no choice

Life is like a game of cards

You take what you get and make the best of what you are dealt

There’s so much positive to focus on yet sad memories crowd your head …

What’s the purpose of living like a broken shell

All hollow , used and worn out

Dragging your tattered body , your soul’s only shell

Asking God for forgiveness for things u don’t remember you did or said

Forgive, live and let live

Love like you were never hurt believe life’s a miracle …

Love ,give wholeheartedly and just forget

Pray , love,eat Repeat

Keep looking for a purpose

Tread gingerly …

Choose kindly words

Quiet quitting ..

hearts bleeding …

silently die.

Yaaron tumhaari yaari bahut yaad aati hai

Woh college ke dino ki khumaari bahut yaad aati hai

Pooja Tumhari Bholi soorat par

sharaarat bhari muskaan

Jaise kisi naye pange ka elaan

Rashmi ke reshmi awaaz aur no nonsense andaaz

Woh mera perpetual kabhi Poo kabhi Parvati wala haal

Udita ki badi badi baatein

Ek car panchi च****ार

Woh khatti mithi yaadein

Woh nani ki paintings,

daytime dreaming

bunking for dating

heartaches n crushes

Attendance ke hassles

Ghungroo wale jhumke aur reshmi tassels

Kaafi haseen aur namkeen thhey hum

Beparvah dil nasheen thhey hum

Chalo phir se mil le

Kuch pal past main jee le

Waqt ka kya bharosa

Kab saath chhod jaaye

Mil lo Yaaro phir se

kuch aur jee paaye

🥰💕✨✨✨

मैं ते****रे बग़ैर उदास हूँ

मु**झ से आके** मिल

यूहीं** बीत ना** जाये ये ज़िंदगी,

मुझसे आके मिल

कु**छ अपनी कह कुछ** मेरी भी सुन

ज़रा आके मिल

कितनी** बातें *सुननी* और सुनानी हैं

एक कंब**ल में *साथ* ब**ैठ कर

एक प्य****ाली** च**ाय पर

एक ज़िंद****गी दोहरानी है

मैं तेरे बग़ैर** *उदास* हूँ** म**ुझ से आके मिल

व**ो तेरे बचपन से**** म*ेर*े बुढ़ाप**े तक का सफ़र

व**ो तेरी पहली मुस्कुरा*हट से ले*कर **डोली तक का बसर

कैसे इतने बड़े हो गए सब

कैसे पल**** मैं *गुज*़र** गई** ये ज़िंदगी

मैं तेरे बग़ैर ..

तेरे हर दुख से** वा**क़िफ़ हूँ मैं

*तेरी हर ख़ुश*ी मे भ**ी हूँ शामिल

आ बै**ठ ज़रा**** *थोड़*ा **थम भी जा

फि**र मिले ना मिले** हमें यह मौक़ा

व**ो छोटी** छोटी बातें

और *बड़*े बड़े **अफ़साने

सभ**ी तो तुझे** सुनाने हैं

तेरा हाल ए दिल भी मैं सुनूँ ज़रा

कभ**ी तो कम्बख़्त फुर्**सत से आके मिल

मैं तेरे**** बग़ैर *उदास* हू**ँ **मुझसे आके मिल

रह न**ा जाए उनकही**** *बात* दिल** की जरा आके मिल ..

I am a warrior I am a mother

I have loved, lived, laughed and cried

a life lived…purpose fulfilled

I breathe in my children

I see through their eyes

I share their laughter

Shed Silent tears over their fears

Feel their love over my plight

Looking forward to seeing them hearing their voices

feeling the warmth of their hugs

A chill runs down my spine

Fear outlines my excitement

Past experiences of emotional hurt we cause one another due to our love our concerns

Weighing down my flight of happiness like a wet blanket

I dread the emotional turmoil

Like a turbulent flight

Clutching my pieces of heart

Stifling my cries

Embarrassed at my situation

Not knowing what is right

Do I flee or fight

Flee what …fight whom

Is it just a coincidence

Or am I guessing right

The ‘word’ mummy is the same for a mother

also for a corpse

embalmed preserved

Truly a mother personified !

Silent, still, preserved and possessed

Without a spirit unable to move resist flee or fight

Cannot tell can’t speak

Lest be judged too mortified..

Pounded with imploring …questioning your thinking actions intentions

Your sanity…

shredding your gratitude love confidence ….

Trying to be Understanding without being understood

Not wise but a fool

Coz I’m a wife a mother

Wounded with scars I am proud to take with me to my grave

Coz I know I tried

In my heart and yours too a lil voice echoes…

I chose silence to be kind

Writing anonymously expressing my anguish

So I may breathe, to survive…

I’m a warrior, I’m a mother ….