moral scrupulously
i feel nuts and insane. i am constantly arguing with myself and its non stop black and white thinking. i realize that both are extremes that are panic inducing. i am trying so hard to let it go and let people be but i haaaaave to get this out so hopefully i can just let it be somewhere else and get some support for it. these are the two sides of my ocpd coin.
vast outcomes, ideals, probabilities and apprehensions. which is best? Which is efficient and morally right? martyrdom comes naturally. overcoming an intolerant society and naturally chaotic environment has never been possible for me. it’s so far out of reach it’s infuriating- why don’t these people see what I do? over and over again my passion is misconstrued with self righteousness and virtue signaling. put me on a cross I absolutely yearn for it.
why are YOU the moral arbiter of truth? do you think your a god? what if your evil? you would be imposing others and forcing them to be “pure” and stick to your puritanical beliefs. your no better than the far right, forcing others to adhere to their ideology. your just as bad as they are. bad bad bad bad bad. evil! you know better! why do you get so upset when you KNOW people have different views and perspectives on the world? they are people who experienced wildly different things in contrast to your own. YOU ARE NOT THE ARBITER OF TRUTH. you way is not the right way. it’s the right way for you. shame shame shame shame shame embarrassment cycle shameeeee never express your views again because someone could think your an evil person and try to inflict their incorrect morals onto you and then your left VULNERABLE and mailable to others
ok anyway I hope this is relatable and I hope to leave this here so I can stop thinking about it 😀👍🏻