Found out I have dermatophagia.
I've always done this since I was a kid, it started when I was like 8 years old. I was diagnosed with anxiety so that's prob where it comes from. I also most likely suffer from depression from a young age just was never diagnosed professionally but that would also make sense. The biting would be off and on, sometimes real bad or I wouldn't do it at all really. Scabs/injuries hated to see me coming, I would peck till I'd get an infection. I never saw anyone else do it and I would hide it cause I was embarrassed or ashamed. I remember my mom getting angry and telling me to stop, but I just couldn't.
Till today, I found out I have this disorder. I was quite shocked finding that so many others had it or do it. Was also shocked it's considered as some sort of auto cannabalism?? Which scares me but I don't eat the skin or suck the blood on purpose. My skin around my fingers have been so scared they have no sensory and they're purple and rough and ugly it makes me sad. I always tried to stop it which clearly never worked since I'm 19 and still do it. It feels nice knowing that this is an actual thing though (not happy I have it) it makes me feel less weird knowing what I have, that it's an actual thing. it's helped me figure out some solutions and I can relate to others now, it's nice not feeling like I'm the only one experiencing this. Just wanted to share.